It’s been difficult figuring out where to start with these reflections. What’s mostly been on my mind lately is the time constraints I’ve been under and being productive without wearing myself thin and rushing through this crucial part of the process: research and analysis.
I’ve always known and trusted the importance of pre-rehearsal research and that working hard on the front end will save me time during rehearsals. However, sometimes I get worried that the ways I’m engaging with the text (which are often tedious and time consuming) won’t be useful for me and that I wasted time on fruitless tasks. I’m beginning a journey during this experience where I learn to trust my own instincts and insights and know that the direction I’m taking myself in is valuable and worthwhile. I think that journey begins here with me diving headfirst into whatever work feels right in preparation for auditions, design meetings, and letting other people in as I begin to share my love for this script with a group of collaborators whom I know have amazing ideas. If I can’t begin to trust my own judgement, how can I expect anybody I’m collaborating trust me?
I’m looking forward to all of this hard work paying off in the near future. It will be so worth it.
